After seeing someone on here this morning who lost a child to cancer, I was reminded of this short part in my story.
For anyone who has ever lost a child, whether that child was an organ donor or not; know they had some special purpose, and you were the guardians of a little hero! Even if you had a still-born child, or a child who passed away in the womb; there was some reason..some purpose! Our human minds can’t understand, but we will someday! I am pasting this excerpt from book one of my series, Soul Deceiver, for those to read who have ever lost a child. God gave me this, and I hope it blesses and touches you today. I love you; I really, really do love you my friend.
“Back to my original point; there are ministers who preach healing for all, and it’s completely unbiblical! As I’ve just explained, Jesus did not guarantee us eternal life in the flesh—he guaranteed us eternal life in the spirit.
“Now don’t get me wrong, I’m a big believer in faith and healing—but then if you’re going to preach this, you can’t go around telling everyone that they didn’t have enough faith, or they didn’t pray hard enough; maybe they did. And if they did, you’re discouraging them; all that’s going to happen is the person is going to give up and lug around a bunch of resentment and anger toward God, and that’s not good!”
Krista responded. “I know exactly what you’re talking about now. In fact, I’ve been there before in my life. When I was a kid, a small child in my first grade class was diagnosed with a brain tumor. The parents prayed—the entire church prayed, I prayed, everyone prayed! Words of faith were spoken and people recited scripture, cast out devils of sickness and disease, the whole nine yards!
“The little boy had the tumor surgically removed, went through chemo, radiation—everything. Everyone praised God, and all was well for a while until the tumor returned. Then it started all over again—everyone was praying, speaking faith, and quoting scriptures. But this time, the tumor didn’t go away, and the little boy died.
“The parents were bitter toward God after this, and felt as if they hadn’t prayed hard enough. They lived the rest of their lives wondering if they’d done something wrong that had made God angry, and whether or not this was their punishment—I was even angry with God and didn’t understand!
“The parents made him an organ donor and saved two other children in the process who were awaiting transplants. So whenever it came up, I told people that God had sent the little boy here to this world for the sole purpose of saving these two other little children who were going to die. I told people that the parents didn’t understand because in their hearts, he was theirs and should remain theirs as most children do; but in God’s heart, the little boy was His from the beginning, and God blessed the parents by temporarily giving this little hero of His to them. So spiritually, they were the temporary guardians of a champion who came to give up his life so that two other lives could continue living on. I guess, in a different sense, it’s kind of like what you’re saying about Jesus, except He gave up His life so that millions of people, from generation to generation, would not suffer death eternally.”
She wiped at her eyes as she looked up at Simpson who sat speechless with tears rolling down his cheeks. She couldn’t believe it! This was the first time she’d ever seen him shed one tear.
“Krista, that was beautiful! I’ve never been able to give anyone an answer that would make them feel better when they’ve lost a child; but that was truly amazing!”
SPECIAL NOTE FROM AUTHOR: This part of my book was inspired by a situation back in 2006. A girl had murdered her two small children, and had been reaching out prior to that over the internet on her myspace page. You could tell from her posts that she was going through depression. Through this happening, I created a website that went national; other woman across the nation copied mine offering the same help. We created something to help save the lives of children; an organization that helps women by being there as a safe repository for whatever the mother was going through.
The last child I gave birth to, I went through alone. I had no help. I had to carry my still young other child up and down flights of stairs while carrying the newborn. Taking my trash out was a struggle. The day I came home from the hospital in zero degree weather, I had to take the newborn and myself to the grocery store with no help. While I can honestly say I’ve never had thoughts to harm or neglect the children, I was just depressed and felt alone. In fact, I can’t understand anyone even having a thought to harm any child.
Regardless, we reached out to offer ourselves…stressed out? Contact us, we’ll come and sit with your child/children while you take a drive. We’ll take your trash out or clean for you…all for free. Just call us. We’ll do whatever it takes to help you through this, all so your child will be safe. That was our goal.
Through this, I met a young lady who had a baby die because she left the house while her husband was sleeping. It was snowing horribly, and she went to the store to get some things. She didn’t want to take the baby with her in the snow, and she left her in the bouncy seat because she feared the baby might spit up in her sleep while she was gone and gag on the spit-up. When she came home, the baby who had been asleep in the bouncy seat was dead. She did not yet have neck control, and her face went into the bean bag next to the bouncy seat and she suffocated to death.
The mother struggled with guilt and self-blame. She did make her baby an organ donor, who saved several other infant’s lives. This is what I had told her, and so the Lord led me to use this in my book.
May you be blessed!