Dim Sum – Why do l feel denied, deprived, disappointed?

O Lord!

“You said you’d come and share all my sorrows
You said you’d be there for all my tomorrows
I came so close to sending you away
But just like you promised, you came here to stay
I just had to pray”

And you did Lord my Savior, you came when I confessed my sins, repented and I asked you to come into my life. However, I am bearing my sorrows and feeling no hope for my tomorrows because I have reclaimed them as the proud owner instead of leaving them in Your care (1 Peter 5:7). Yes my heavy burdens made me want to send you away because I could not stand it any longer and You did not carry my burden for me. Thank You, Holy Spirit for Your love and reminding me to pray so here I am again O Lord!

 And Jesus said,
“Come to the water, stand by my side
I know you are thirsty, you won’t be denied
I felt every tear drop, when in darkness you cried
And I strove to remind you,
It’s for those tears I died”

I came Lord, I was thirsty and felt parched of your blessings and I stood by Your side today.  I did not want to be denied  of Your blessings and I cried to think  that You would die for my tears…Lord, I can’t stop crying from the pain and sorrow of my trials and tribulations and you remind me that I must let you dry my tears and it is not for me to struggle to do it by myself  in my weakness. ( 2 Corinthians 12:10) I must know how strong You are my Omnipotent God. I have failed to recognize Who You are!

I did Lord! I came to You  and You showed me

Your goodness so great, I can’t understand it
And dear Lord I know now that all this was planned
I know You’re here now and always will be
Your love loosened my chains, and in You I’m free
But Jesus why me?

O Lord!

I know that my trials and tribulations were planned for my good (Romans 8:28) and that they are to make me strong in faith and to prune those worldly sins and doubts which displease You.  Please help me to be strengthened and to trust You more

I am not worthy.  Why me? It is for someone else ..your promise is too good for me, I can’t believe it! I am so disappointing to You for I failed to understand Your requirement that in order for me to receive Your empowerment for victory , You are there for me, to be  my All in all. You want all of me not just head knowledge – You want my spirit, soul and heart. Lord I did not understand that You must have first place in my life and that there can be no other gods beside You.. You Alone must have my loyalty, my desires, my dreams. I have been ensnared by the enemy by the lusts of my eyes, my flesh and the pride of life in me.

You alone are worthy to have All of me

Jesus I give You, my heart and my soul
I know now without God, I’ll never be whole
Savior, You opened all the right doors
And I thank You and praise You from earth’s humble shores
Take me I’m Yours
!

I did not see You, I did not hear You, I did not obey You  

through all my self pride, struggle and tears,

and I dared to complain, whine, cry and blame you for all the sufferings and pain I chose to struggle against in my own strength.

I wanted to do it my way, my time, my strength when You wanted to show me Your way is best, You time makes everything fall into place and Your strength enables and empowers me to be victorious over every circumstance.

It was the devil who tempted me
But I made my choice and had to live in its consequence for what we sow we have to reap.

O Lord!
Please give me another chance to live and learn from Your love, patience and care.

Thank You Lord for being here for me!
I am truly sorry for not recognizing and honoring You in my life.

Please open the doors for me Lord,
I take the blame for the mess through doors I opened on my own..

Words of song in italics from “For Those Tears I Died” by Marsha J and Russ Stevens

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