You will have to work hard to stay “afloat” in this world. However, that being said; learn to work in His strength not yours. All things are possible with God. Matthew 19:26 Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” The original context of this verse speaks to being saved, but note the wording, all things are possible. In His strength we can do all things if we have a strong faith. If you are rooted and grounded in your faith, you will be able to get through whatever the world throws at you.
If you are carrying un-forgiveness in your heart for anyone, it will be your undoing. Un-forgiveness is like a cancer, eating away at you piece by piece. Un-forgiveness is like drinking poison and the expecting the other person to die! Forgive!! Forgiveness is more for you than anyone else. You are releasing your self from bondage to misery when you forgive. That does not mean that you forget, but you forgive. You release that person from any obligation to you. Let’s say you had an uninvolved Dad for example; he really did a lot to hurt you. But you should forgive him for all that he did to you, why, because it frees you! He will probably not change (unless the offending person meets Jesus as well) so will not ask for your forgiveness. So who is really being punished when you hold on to the hurt he caused you? You are, but if you forgive him, you are freeing yourself. But you say that you want him to pay for what he did…that is kind of normal, we all want those who hurt us to pay for what they did, that is our flesh talking. Remember what the Lord said, Romans 12:19 Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” says the Lord.
Reasons we don’t hear His voice,
1. We are not listening. God’s voice may be often heard through our conversations with other believers. Or in the Word of God, a passage or part of one just seems to jump out at you, that can be the Holy Spirit speaking to you.
2. We are knowingly sinning, or have un-confessed sin our lives.
3. We are not living according to God’s Word, but living the same as the rest of the world (sinning).
4. We are knowingly avoiding a call from God about something He wants us to be doing.
If you have doubts, this is normal; all of us have doubts at times. We all have dry seasons when it seems God is nowhere to be found. We need to do our part still, no excuses. Worship, read, praise, and thank Him. Make thanking God part of daily prayers, as there is always something to be thankful for, like salvation.
If you want God to give, you need to give first. Give Him what He really wants…you. Make a presentation of your self to God. Pray and give/commit your body to God, commit your mind to God, and then finally your will to God. After you have done this, each morning tell God in prayer that your mind, your will, and your body are committed to Him. Your body, because it is a temple of the Holy Spirit who lives in you, you can’t very well expect God to be pleased and bless you if you are doing things wrong in a sexual way with your body. Your mind, because you need to be focused on God and His Word, not on the things of this world and all the things you want. Your will, because you are to be in submission to God, not doing whatever you will, but what He wills.
Remember even Jesus Christ Himself when here on earth was in submission to God the Father. Jesus wanted to do the will of the Father, not His own will, and Jesus was and is God! John 6:38 For I have come down from heaven not to do my will but to do the will of him who sent me.
Remember also that Christ walked the path before you, so understands you and what you are going through. Just one more thing to be thankful for!