Today I posted my 600th posting on the The Abuse’ Expose with Secret Angel since it was started in May so I want to share a short story that I had written:
A Glimpse into My Journey From Victim to Overcomer
There are many people in this world that are victims of abuse and trying to find secret places to hide from their abusers. These include victims of emotional, verbal, physical, sexual, spiritual, or financial abuse and all have something in common—wounds caused by abuse. These victims seek places where they can feel safe. That place may be hiding somewhere physically or just withdrawn emotionally. It is during these moments of abuse when most cry out to God to protect and to rescue them. It is also in these physical or mental hiding places, when crying out to God, that we are closest to finding that intimacy with God that gains us entrance into the ultimate hiding place—a secret hiding place in His presence.
God sees everything! He knows every wound, whether physical, emotional, or spiritual, that has been inflicted upon us. He sees these deep wounds hidden in the depths of our souls and spirits, where the human eye cannot see. He hears as victims cry out to Him even though it may be silently with not a word spoken. He knows every thought before it is completed. He knows every heart and desires for every heart to totally turn to Him and accept His Son, Jesus Christ, as our Savior. He desires that invitation from each of us to inhabit our hearts. Though most invite God to visit in times of need, it is in our total brokenness, when nothing in this world matters, that we finally reach out to God in desperation. When we truly ask Him into our hearts, not for visitation, but for habitation, He begins healing and restoration. It is in this brokenness, when we are no longer holding onto things of this world, that God can put back the pieces and crumbs of our broken or crushed lives to remake us. When we finally seek this level of intimacy with God, we can find that ultimate hiding place where God will not only protect and rescue us, but He will bring us to a new level of wholeness in Him. It is that actual place mentioned in Psalm 91 and Matthew 6, NKJV—“the secret place.”
“But you, when you pray, go into your room, and when you have shut your door, pray to your Father who is in the secret place, and your Father who sees in secret will reward you openly.” (Matthew 6:6)
“He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.” (Psalm 91:1)
Some may ask how to get to this “place”. It took me years to find it. I was one of these victims of abuse. For years, I cried out to God secretly for help as I suffered various abuses. I would always turn to Him but then turn away when situations improved. It was not until I was totally crushed that I truly gave my heart to God. Previously, my relationship with Him was very casual. Then, in my desperation, I started seeking more of Him. I desired a deeper relationship with Him. He began revealing more about Himself and the miraculous to me. He became my Protector, like a heavenly Husband, protecting me from abuse. He allowed me to feel some things spiritually—a total peace that was not of this world and also my soul and spirit crying out from the wounds of abuse. He gave me visions and dreams with healing from my past and hope for my future. He spoke to me in miraculous ways. He flew birds directly in front of my vehicle guiding my path as I prayed for guidance. He showed me that He is in control of everything and allowed me to see, hear, and feel things that are not possible in the natural. He gave me a glimpse into His Kingdom that I could have never imagined when hanging onto my old life. It was in my total brokenness that God was able to remake me to that new level of wholeness. I know that He protects me and guides my path as I have learned to get into that spiritual place of prayer with Him where nothing can harm me, “the secret place of the Most High.” It’s a place available to all who want more than this world can offer.
Dear Lord, draw us into a deeper relationship with You with an intimacy like a new bride. Open our spiritual ears and our spiritual eyes that we can experience Your Kingdom here on earth. We want more of You Lord. We cry out for a miraculous move of Your Spirit to rescue more victims to lead them out of their bondage. Lord, set the captives free and bring healing to the broken… in Jesus’ Mighty Name. Amen.