What It Cost

I knew in the beginning I would fall in love with you – I mean how could I not?

Look at you… you are made so intricately, so beautifully, so fearfully and wonderfully….

I used to watch you as you played with other children. How you would smile so sweetly –  and run so fast, like the wind. It invigorated me. And when you laughed, oh my, such a hearty belly laugh. I found myself wanting to giggle right along beside you. You sought me out then, and wanted to spend time with me. The innocence of a child, the goodness of a little ones heart, it was just so perfect. We were together all the time. It was heaven on earth.

When you began to grow older we didn’t spend as much time together. There were parties to go to, friends to hang out with and a world full of big ideas to chase. You sometimes didn’t seek me for months, and our morning visits happened less and less. I would get so sad because you often forgot I was even in the room. But I stayed close and waited and watched –  even though it hurt me… and you never knew how much it cost me.

Time went on and the older you got,  the farther away you went from me. You had some happy times, victories and some pains too. I was there – to celebrate with you – and the angels danced in heaven.  But when you were hurting, I tried very hard to remind you I was there, but you didn’t see me – So I stood by silently, aching for you, crying with you. And you turned away –  too accustomed to chasing other things and other people. And you never knew how much it cost me.

Remember that day you awoke in misery?  Crying out – lamenting wasted opportunities, a damaged future, perhaps the price of bad relationships and worse choices.  Your heart broken, your soul torn.  I was there, I stood beside you.  Oh how I wanted to gather you into my arms as a mother hen would her chicks. Still, you never heard me. You were too consumed in your own sorrow to reach up to the hand that I offered. I wanted to heal you so bad. But you wouldn’t ask. I knew your were too ashamed to do so. I called – you did not hear –  but still I stayed and waited – and you didn’t know how much that cost me.

Oh My dear one, I pray you will remember me – Do you not know I have always loved you? You may have felt lost, but you are never too far from my grace and love.  I never tire of waiting for you; I promise if you seek me you will find me when you seek me with all your heart. I have already paid the price for you, you are mine.”

Now it is the autumn of your days. Your once dark curls gather gray around your head and those lilting eyes dim with years, and so I whisper, once again into your heart – “Follow me…come to me…” And to my delight – this time you do hear me,

“Lord, is that you?”

“Yes my child, I am here…”

“Lord, I need you.  I am tired, and sick –  I am frightened and I feel alone. Please help me, if you will.  I know I do not deserve your help, but I need you….”

“My daughter do you not know, have you not heard – that I will never leave you or forsake you? I wait upon you to call on me, it is my greatest desire to love you. But I do not push, as it must be up to you…I have been here always.”

I watch your eyes sparkle with tears of relief and your heart fill up with joy. And this time, when I reach out for your hand you grab mine right back and gently touch the scars on my hands. Your face darkens…. and you remember.

“My child,” I say to you, “Come now let us reason together, though your mistakes be like crimson let me gather them all in my heart and wash them white as snow. Because sweet
one, I have always loved you, and I have cast your sins as far as the east is to the west, I remember them no more….I love you heart and soul. Nothing could ever separate me from you or you from me. And to prove this, I gave my life for you.”

I watch you as you bow your head in agreement – too emotional to speak.

“Are you ready to go my daughter? I will take you with me, I have prepared a room in advance for you.”  As you nod yes I put my arm around you and usher you into the light. You smile at me, with that childish smile of so many years ago and lean in to my shoulder in trust.

And as we walk together into eternity – you whisper into my ear this time and say, “Father, now I know how much it cost you, thank you…”

I smile and hold you tight “Yes, love – and I would do it all over again.”

About setyourpathsstraight

It is my desire to serve God and others through writing; by proclaiming His goodness, provision and character in story form. Though I was not always a follower of Jesus Christ, I have experienced life changes that can only be a result of personally meeting Him. He is not a God of religion, but of relationship. I don't have the answers to life's challenges, but I know where to find them...only in God's Word can any of us stop following crooked paths. The month of my spiritual birthday, I read Proverbs 3:5-6 and claimed it as my life verse... "Trust in the Lord in all you do, lean not on your own understanding In all your ways acknowledge Him.... and He will Set Your Paths Straight." Thank you for your visit today. Please come back again.
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