I was not raised in church..
but I remember from a young age having an awareness of God. I attended vacation Bible school like many young children did and many of the Bible verse that are precious to me even now I memorized during those times. It occurred to me this morning that even though I have shared parts of my testimony, I have never written it down. It would take more space that I have to tell it all, but hopefully I have hit the highlights and what I have written might encourage someone.
I was a child of the sixties, the baby boomer generation and was greatly influenced by the culture of that time. I had a natural ability for music which became the main thing in my life and would remain so until the latter part of the 90’s.
My relationship with my dad was strained to say the least. I was rebellious, he went through a period of heavy drinking during this time and at sixteen I left home to live with my aunt. My life over the next two decades was a series of broken relationships, drugs, alcohol and music.
In 1980 my ex-wife was saved. At that time we were separated and I was living the life of a rock musician in every respect as far away from God as anyone could be.
We started talking not about repairing our relationship but about how her life had changed. And as she shared her salvation experience (at first I wanted nothing to do with it) a stirring in my heart began to take place.
In October of 1980 Danny Womack who remains a good friend to this day prayed with me to receive salvation and the baptism of the Holy Spirit. I was delivered from drugs, alcohol, and tobacco almost immediately. I moved out of the band house I was living in started attending church and for the first time in my life felt real peace and freedom.
The song by Keith Green “Love Broke Through” has always had a special place in my heart. It describes what I felt then and even now reminds me of God’s ability to show grace and reach us no matter where we are.
“Like waking up from the longest dream.
How real it seemed,
Until your love broke through.”
My pastor has said “Many think of salvation as a straight line from the day we are saved until we reach heaven. But in reality it’s a journey that has many twists and turns, even wrong directions. But God is faithful to call us back and get us back on the right path.”
If there was ever an accurate description of my journey from that day in 1980 until today that would certainly be accurate.
From being ordained and called into ministry, taking a wrong turn after a failed church planting experience that lasted longer than I like to remember, to the day that I stopped running from myself, my past, my sin and God, and like the Prodigal came home expecting nothing. Until today, God has been faithful and blessed me with more than I ever could ask or imagine.
I gave up music which I loved at the end of my prodigal journey. It was not a conscious thought of “God if I give this up, what do I get in return?”, in fact it was more like a door closing, and another opening. There was a time when I could not imagine not being a musician now it is like a distant dream, almost like someone else lived those times, that life. And God has more than replaced what in reality was an idol and god in my life with so much more.
In 2006 I had the blessing of being chosen as a National Volunteer with Convoy of Hope. I became involved in ministry at James River Church in the Life Groups ministry. I became one of the leaders in Men’s Ministry at James River and now teach the Men’s group at Riverdale Baptist.
In 2017 I was approached by a good friend with the Christian County Sheriff’s Office who asked if I had ever thought about being a chaplain. And the rest as it is said, is history.
I began serving as a chaplain in 2017 and continue to serve to the present day.
I have been present in the moments where loved ones have tragically ended their lives. I sat in a room with families when they were told their loved ones did not survive the tragedy that occurred in Branson in 2018. I have listened to law enforcement officers as they talk about the difficulties of their service to our communities and I am amazed and encouraged by their dedication and passion for a sometimes thankless and way underappreciated job. I have experienced the loss, grief and anger they felt when one of their own ended his life. It is an honor to serve all these men and women in their time of grief in some way, and I am aware that without God’s help I have little to offer.
The jail in Christian County is my primary area of responsibility as a chaplain. When I meet with broken men and women whose lives have been destroyed by drugs and many times drug related crimes I can speak into their lives with a certain amount of understanding. “If not for the grace of God” there were many times in my life where I could have ended up where they find themselves. It is this understanding that allows me to offer hope to them that I know is real.
My testimony is not clean and pretty like we sometimes imagine it or want it to be.
But it is real.
I have seen God’s hand in countless ways in many situations in my life, and can only say at the end of it all,
To God be the glory!