I Am Thinking of You

I am thinking of you today.

Because I can see inside your heart and I know the turbulence that fills it.

But remember. As always, this will pass. Have I not taught you – let not your heart be troubled?

I was thinking of you, there in that hotel room- when you finally heard my call and kneeled beside that bed – confessing 30 plus years of selfishness, shame and disgust of your choices. And I sent the pure sweet smell of sunrise, spring tulip trees and singing morning doves lilting into your windows. And I reminded you I was there to watch you breathe your first eternal air that precious morn when you gave me your life.

I was there on the beach with you that September when you laid your tear- streaked face down in the sand, overcome with pain. Sobbing over long past mistakes.

Do you remember what I said to you then? “I have already forgiven you but I cannot do anything with you until you forgive yourself.”

And you learned to start trusting me.

I was there with you that afternoon someone you love deeply betrayed you to the very soul of your heart. You couldn’t even breathe. So I breathed for you. And I promised I would not leave you, I whispered to you that I would make all things new. I needed to break it to build it again. All I asked of you at that moment was to “lay your Ebeneezer down” to me and trust.

And you begrudgingly released your pain to me. In return I sent you signs and prayers and songs and wonders and you learned I could be trusted. And I healed you. And I proved to you what was meant for evil I used for good. I kept my promise.  I restored your life.

Remember when I stood beside you that dusk- when you got The Call. It was time for you to release your father to me. When the nurse called you – I watched a strong woman crumple into a weak and bereft child. His daughter. But My princess. I alone knew the myriad of feelings that drowned you in the moment. Pain. Relief. Loss. Missed opportunity. You felt like an orphan and I reminded you – I am still your Daddy. And I will never be lost to you.

And this morning, I am standing with you now. I heard you crying in the shower. I felt your fear, your worry, your exhaustion from holding it all together.

I want you to know daughter I always think of you. I have chosen you. Even when you give up on you…on Me. I will never let you go and one day, this old life will be past. And I will be thinking of you then too… and we will be dancing together at our wedding feast.

My bride. My daughter. My creation. My lovely. I promise.

About setyourpathsstraight

It is my desire to serve God and others through writing; by proclaiming His goodness, provision and character in story form. Though I was not always a follower of Jesus Christ, I have experienced life changes that can only be a result of personally meeting Him. He is not a God of religion, but of relationship. I don't have the answers to life's challenges, but I know where to find them...only in God's Word can any of us stop following crooked paths. The month of my spiritual birthday, I read Proverbs 3:5-6 and claimed it as my life verse... "Trust in the Lord in all you do, lean not on your own understanding In all your ways acknowledge Him.... and He will Set Your Paths Straight." Thank you for your visit today. Please come back again.
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5 Responses to I Am Thinking of You

  1. geoaffleck says:

    Blessed me…thanks!

  2. abagwellx4 says:

    This is absolutely beautiful!

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